Scribblings


No longer bitter
But not so sweet
No longer broken
But still a little chipped
No longer faded
But still less than bright
No longer a girl
But now a woman
A woman who knows the burn of pain
And now the soothing balm of love
A woman who is familiar with a frown
But now prefers a smile
A woman who was skeptical
But is now a proud believer

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You are the man I always wanted but never thought I could have
The dream I would rush to sleep to have
And fight the daylight to keep
The prayer I would whisper to the moon from my childhood bedroom
The Wish I made on every first star I saw
You are the prize
The trophy
The golden apple
You are everything I never knew I always wanted
And I am still pinching myself to make sure you are real
To let myself know that you are not some figment of my imagination
A day dream that I will soon be pulled out of
And I take comfort in knowing that you are real
And that you are mine

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Come home from work
Slip off your shoes
Drop your keys on the counter
Slide off your shorts
Pull off your shirt
And come to me
Let me be you calm
Allow me to sooth the day away
Rub the stress from your shoulders
Kiss the worry from you brow
Let me lend an ear to bend
A shoulder to cry on
Let me be a safe haven
Tell me your fears and fantasies
Fully knowing I will never judge
And promise to be all these things for me in turn
Be my solace
Be my Friend
Be my love

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I want to lay under a round roof with you
I want to walk in the rain and hold your fingers to my lips
I want to see movies other people don't get, and get them with you
I want to see you grow older and more wise
I want to watch our dreams come true
I want to like coffee for you
I want to wake up next to you every morning knowing I'll be back under the sheets with you by nightfall
I want to cook bad food and have you tell me it's bad
I want shower visits for the rest of my life
I want to rub your feet after a long day
I want to watch grey clouds blow in and never once run for cover
I want to say goodnight every night with a kiss and an I love you no matter how tired we are
I want to be strong but know that it is ok to be weak
I want to say 'I do' looking squarely in you eyes
I want to feel your old, arthritic fingers wrapped around mine
I want to love you until the day that I die and I want you to be happy until the day that you do