Boy You Still Look Pretty When You're Putting The Damage On

As much as I hate this "relationship" we are in right now I want to stay
I want to figure this out
Make it better
Make it right
This is big for me
Huge
This is the first time I've ever liked anyone enough to stick with it
A very large part of me is screaming RUN in a horse voice that I've heard before and usually listen to
But it's silent tonight
I told her to stay out of it
Told myself to talk to you first
Get a feel for how this is going to continue
If this is going to continue

I'm ready to be with you
Just you
No more of this I sleep with him
You sleep with her bullshit
If you don't want to be with just me than it will have to be cut and dry
No phone calls
No friendly lunches or hanging out
That would be too painful for me
Salt in the wound and all that

I'm scared shitless to think that I am going to say this to you
Because I think I know what your answer is going to be
And I don't want to be without you
To have that last kiss, because you promised the one in my driveway wasn't
To sleep alone again
Have my hand go unheld
My lips unkissed
My nights will go back to tv and cds
Books and magazines
My days will be all work and no play
And I never did like being dull
The phone won't ring anymore
At least not with you on the other end

I like you
A lot
And I want you to know that I don't want the end of this to be so soon
But it can't go on like this
I can't go on like this